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06:33am 29/03/2008
  Sometimes
I feel I've got to run away
I've got to get away
From the pain
You drove into the heart of me
The love we share
Seems to go nowhere
I think I've lost my light
For I toss and turn
I can't sleep at night

Once I ran to you (I ran)
Now I run from you
This tainted love you've given
Give you all a girl could give you
Take my tears
And thats not nearly all

Tainted love
Tainted love

Now I know I've got to run away
I've got to get away
You don't really want anymore from me
To make things right
You need someone to hold you tight
And you'll think love is to pray
But I'm sorry I don't pray that way

Once I ran to you (I ran)
Now I run from you
This tainted love you've given
Give you all a girl could give you
Take my tears
And thats not nearly all

Tainted love
Tainted love

Don't touch me please
I can not stand it when you tease
I love you though you hurt me so
But I'm going to pack my things and go

Tainted love (Oh)
Tainted love (Tainted love)
Tainted love (Tainted love)
Tainted love
Tainted love!

Baby, baby
Baby, don't leave me
Ooh, please don't leave me
All by myself
I've got this burning
Yearning, yearning
Feeling inside me
Ooh, deep inside me
And it hurts so bad
You came into my heart
So tenderly
With a burning love
That stings like a bee
And now that I surrender
So helplessley
You Now Wanna Leave
Ooh, you want to meet me

Baby, baby
Where did our love go?
Ooh there's a burning...
 
     
*2 Popped a Pill & decided to Yell at Patty*
 
I always wait too long to post entries...   
09:08pm 06/02/2008
 
mood: blah
And I apologize for my LiveJournal tardiness.


So whats the haps with yous guys?
 
     
*1 Popped a Pill & decided to Yell at Patty*
 
Anyone even READ their LJs Anymore?   
02:02pm 28/09/2007
 
mood: high
Comment on this so I know if any of you are alive.

Apologies for the lack of updates.

Love,
~Patty
 
     
*5 Popped a Pill & decided to Yell at Patty*
 
Chinese Fish food update!   
02:00pm 13/09/2006
  So in my infinite wisdom, I decided last night on the bus that I was going to try the strange stuff in the bottle I found at Felicias work. The following pictures speak for themselves:


BEFORE:


UGH! FUCK!


AND AFTER:


UGH!



No exaggeration, it was the nastiest tasting shit I've ever put in my mouth.

And that's my story of the nast chinese fish food. Since I really didnt have anything interesting to update about, I leave you with this, an adorable little mouse I made out of a tampon:


Mousey


LOVE LOTS,
Patty

 
     
Yell at Patty*
 
To My Adoring Masses...   
04:57pm 11/09/2006
 
mood: content
In the interest of actually making this a journal of shit that happens in my life and not just a showcase of amusing pictures I take (Although my previous entry on Chinese fish food was amusing) I've decided to update about my life (Like any of you give a shit... If you did you'd call) So, here we go. The microwave, do-it-yerself, instant Patty Updates:


1. Mental Status - Better than usual. Lithium works. I just wish these nightmares would go the fuck away. I have either horrible dreams of my loved ones or I have wonderful dreams of people whom hate me now, so I have to wake up and come to terms with the fact that they hate me every morning. Ugh. As far as the pills go, I'm still going strong and will probably never quit. After all, Ive been doing them since I was 12. I dont know who I am without them. At least I dont feel guilty for them anymore so I no longer try to hide them.


2. Financial Status - Ugh. Ups and downs. Just paid my phone bill today. Im gonna owe Felicia a lot of $$$ when its all said and done. Better her than Terry tho. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Only Felicia got that joke.


3. Romantic Status - I DONT WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT.


4. Pshysical Status - Neck still hurts, occasionally. Other than that Im doing alright. Planning a few new tattoos, but other than that same old same old.


5. Other - I'm excitied about the new Future Bible Heroes song. Um, I find myself missing people out of nowhere. A certain person from Elberon goes without saying, but in addition to her I've had these moments where I start missing random people so bad it hurts. Molly, especially. Also, Blue, Dee, Rob (From Seattle), Tiffany, A handful of people from high school. The other day right before I started taking Lithium I thought about a girlfriend of mine from high school that hung herself and I just went to peices right there. I literally broke into tears while I was holding a box of organic pop tarts.



And to all you Cali motherfuckers, If all goes well with Bullet I oughta be down there at the end of the month. Hopefully. No promises tho. Its been pretty touch and go in the relationship deopartment lately.


OK, Im done. There's yer precious update. Now go fuck yerself. Or me. Whoever's hotter.

LOVE LOTS,
~Patty

 
     
*6 Popped a Pill & decided to Yell at Patty*
 
Patty's Adventures With Chinese Fish Food...   
04:05pm 11/09/2006
 
mood: confused
OK, So I woke up this morning and went to pick up Felicia. After drinking a few cups of coffee in the break room, I decide to rummage through other people's belongings without permission. I came to the last cabinet by the refridgerator and what I found may shock and baffle you.
I dont exactly know what the fuck these things are, cus I can't read Chinese, or Japanese. I dunno. I can't read asian. And to be honest with you, all I can do is speculate on what this stuff is.


MMMMMM, Jerky!


Exhibit A: What appears to be Japanese beef jerky. Let me make one thing clear... It fucking reeks. So I'm assuming this shit is sea weed of some kind.


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Exhibit B: Chinese Fish Food. This one really scares me. Mainly because it looks like this:


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UGH.
And for those of you who can read asian or know what is in the jar, please tell me. I had to steal the jar because I have to taste it. Im a little scared of it killing me. For all I know it really is fish food. But I have to know.


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*2 Popped a Pill & decided to Yell at Patty*
 
PICTURES!   
03:54pm 08/09/2006
 
mood: happy
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Come on, Let me hear you say it, just once....


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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGH!


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KITTY!!!!!!


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Öpiates are proof that God loves us and wants us to be happy"(For those of you counting, Felicias popping six and Im doing my normal 12)


Anyhoo, Shower me with Love and sing my praises! PATTY LOVES YOU!

(Especially YOU)

 
     
*4 Popped a Pill & decided to Yell at Patty*
 
I get pills!   
02:10pm 01/09/2006
 
mood: apathetic
1mg Risperdal at bedtime, 300mg Lithium twice a day.

Risperdal blocks the dopamine receptors, So I wont be taking it. If I do, it means I cant get high.







FUCK THAT.

So anyway, 300mg of Lithium twice a day.
 
     
*2 Popped a Pill & decided to Yell at Patty*
 
Cheers, Twats!   
09:17am 26/08/2006
 
mood: anxious
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Drinking irish whiskey and hating the way my neck gets fat when I pose for camera phone pics is awesome.
 
     
*2 Popped a Pill & decided to Yell at Patty*
 
My Kitty.....   
07:17am 25/08/2006
 
mood: uncharacteristically Sober!
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My Kitty's name is Kitty Kowalski. But when you say her name you have to go "KITTY!" Like Bullet does. I love my little kitty. More than I love most things. More than pizza. Shes the calico equivalent to Belit. That Fatty.
Felicia gets paid today. That means party tonight. I've been having rather odd dreams involving my loved ones in more often than not random situations. Nothing horribly bad, some dreams were boring, other were downright depressing to wake up from. Ugh I havent been sleeping a lot lately. Just waiting for my disability to kick in so I can get money and all that. Im prolly just excited about all the changes that will be made to my life in 2007. For the better, finally. But whatever. Sorry to bore you, dear reader with uninspired journal entry.
Ugh, Patty's tired and sober. The latter of the two will be corrected this afternoon, the good lord willing. I miss all my playmates in other states. Hopefully Ill be visiting many of them at the end of the year if all goes well.
WOW. I live an uninteresting life. At least when I finally do get to a computer and am desperately trying to think of something to type. Whatever. I promise more cool stuff when I think of it. LOVE YOU!

~Patty
 
     
*11 Popped a Pill & decided to Yell at Patty*
 
Not another LJ, Patty....   
06:26pm 05/08/2006
 
mood: jonesin like a motherfucker
Hey, at least I deleted the old ones and only have one now, so fuck you. Ugh. You think when you havent written in one of these stupid fucking things in a while you'd have a whole helluva lot to write about. WRONG.
Things have been quiet as fuck on the old Patty homestead. Currently living in Chandler, Az for the time being and trying my hand at disability for my neck because work is hella gay. Just been hanging out with the familiar faces like Felicia, DJ, Jess, Chano, Rob, etc.
I'm too busy pill hunting to make new friends, goddamn it. And lish is a popper too now (no, I didnt cause it, dick.) So its more fun to hang out with her. Finally someone to help me in my diabolical schemes. *Sinister Laughter*
Fuck. Even when yer hanging out at a house you can do whatever you please in its still hella boring if you dont have a car. Somebody mail me a car. One of those little ones that the bear drives around in when you go to the circus.

Add me you cunts!

Love,
~Patty
 
     
*4 Popped a Pill & decided to Yell at Patty*